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~*~Chapter 1~*~
1997
Kian sipped another beer then threw his arm around Monica and pulled her onto the dance floor. She spilled her beer on someone. 'Opps...' She giggled. 'Send me the bill.' She laughed. Kian smirked and pulled her close. 'Monica, this is our last night before I go with my lads to see a manger.' 'We can keep in touch.' 'I will I promise.' He said kissing her. 'Come on let's get out of here.' She said grabbing his hand. 'Are you sure? We don't have to.' 'I want to plus it's not like we haven't done it before.' He draped his arm around her shoulder and they wobbled out of the bar and into his car outside. They kissed and she pulled him into the back seat. 'I don't think so. Not here anyway.' He said climbing back into the front seat and starting the car. 'Ki, where we going?' 'Somewhere we can be alone.' 'Good.' She said lying down in the backseat. Once they pulled into a deserted road he jumped into the backseat and the returned to kissing.
2000
Monica woke up in the middle of the night to crying she dragged herself out of bed and into David Michael's room. He sat up in his bed and looked at her. She picked him up. 'Shh... it’s ok Mommy's here.' She said rocking him back and forth. He stopped crying and she put him back in the bed and walked back to her room and tried going back to sleep but she couldn't so she turned on the TV and a Westlife video was on. Her eyes glued to the screen as she spotted tour dates on the bottom. She wrote a few down the looked at her plan book. 'Yea!' She said to herself. She noted down the date and then closed the book and shut off the TV and smiled as she fell back asleep.
~*~Chapter 2~*~
Kian hummed a song to himself as he pulled up to Brenda's house after a day of recording. He rang the bell and she answered and few seconds later. He leaned over and kissed her. 'Hey Kian, back so soon?' 'We finished the CD and then had a short meeting and they gave us our tour dates starting in two months.' 'That stinks, but I have a few shots in the US so I guess I'll have to cope. When are you leaving?' 'Next week we're going back to Ireland for a break then we're coming back here for practice for the tour then back in Ireland in 3 weeks.' She sighed. 'Oh well.' She started up the stairs and he ran after her. 'What's the matter?' 'I'm gonna miss you.' She pouted. 'It's not like I'm not going to miss you. Plus that's what phones are for.' 'I know but it isn't the same.' She turned and walked up the stairs and returned 2 minutes later with her bathing suet on. 'Are you coming or not?' She said looking at him. He smirked and ran up the stair to his room there and quickly put on his trunks. He ran down the stairs to the hot tub in the living room where Brenda was sitting. She smiled then turned her back as he got into the water. 'It is extremely hot!' He yelled. Jumping out. 'Would you rather it freezing? You know what that does.' She smirked and then turned around. 'I didn't say that. I just think it a bit hot.' He said putting a foot in then removing it. 'I like it hotter then this.' She smirked and climbed out of the water and walked past Kian. 'Kian, you can choose what you want to do.' She stated as she walked up the stairs and he sat there thinking. After a few minutes he ran up the stairs after her.
~*~Chapter 3~*~
The time pasted by slowly for Monica and soon it was the day, the day she would be free. Monica quickly wrote a note and then walked out the door with David Michael, Monica was moving to another part of England closer to where she was working until she got a role. The drive was silent as David played with a new teddy bear. 'Mommy, where we going?' 'Your gonna go see daddy.' The little boy laughed. Soon they arrived at the hotel and Monica parked in the lot. She went in for her audition and then managed to sneak up to Kian's floor. The tears rolled down her cheeks. 'Mommy, why are you sad?' 'I'm sad because I'll miss you.' The little boy looked at her with his big brown eyes. She cried a little more then put him and his stuff in front of Kian's door. She knocked and then ran down the hallway and ducked into a cleaning room. Kian opened the door and looked down to see David holding a note. 'Are you my daddy?' He asked about to cry. Kian took the note and slowly read it.
'Kian,
I'm sorry I never told you about your son. This is David Michael. Born on St. Patrick's Day 1997. If you don't believe he's your son take a blood test. I'm sorry but this is all I can do. I've done my best at taking care of him for the past three years. Tell him I love him and I'll be in touch soon. Please take good care of him. Love ~ Monica.'
Kian couldn't believe it. 'Are you my daddy?' David asked again. Bryan came to the door. 'Kian, what's taking you so- what's this?' 'My son.'
~*~Chapter 4~*~
The little boy started to cry and Kian didn't know what to do. Monica watched from the room and fell to the ground in tears, this was the first time she was apart from David and this was going to kill her. 'Kian, do something.' 'Grab his bags. Then go get Ronan's wife.' Bryan did as he was told and soon the rest of Westlife along with Ronan was in his room. 'Kian, what is this?' 'My son, I didn't know. I swear.' Ronan's wife gave David a bottle and he pushed it away. 'I want my mommy. I don't like you.' He said pointing to Kian. He got out of her arms and went to his bag and took out the bear. He sat there and cried. 'Kian, when did this happen?' 'Before we got signed, damn it!' He said pounding a fist on a table. 'Don't say bad words.' Bryan said motioning to David. Ronan's wife tried to calm him down but it was no good. 'You need to find his mom.' 'She moved I tried her parent's house, they haven't heard from her since David was born. She said she'd be in touch.' 'You talked to her?' 'No, she left a note.' He said handing it to Ronan. He looked over it. 'This isn't good.' 'No kidding.' 'Everyone get back to what you were doing, we'll try to track her down later.' Monica sunk out of the closet and ran down the side stairs. She could barley walk since her vision was so blurred. The next few weeks were extremely hard for Monica. She couldn't eat; sleep, but she got a job at a theater in a version of Romeo & Juliet as the extra. Since she already knew the part they were giving the lead the day off and she was taking lead for that night.
~*~Chapter 5~*~
Westlife had a day before they left Europe and Kian was planning on spending it with Brenda and David. 'Brenda, I got tickets to a play are you up for it?' 'Yea, Kian why do you have to keep this thing?' 'He's my son.' Kian said protectively, it had only been a month and a half but he and David were already close. 'Daddy, when will I get to see mommy?' He handed her a picture. 'She sent you this.' He looked at the picture and then Kian handed him a box. David snatched it and opened it quickly; it was his favorite blanket and a new stuffed animal. ‘Mommy loves me.' He said happily. Kian smiled at his son and Brenda rolled her eyes. 'Is he coming too?' 'Yea.' 'Why can't WE just have some time together? Since he got here it's been all about him.' She pouted and stormed into the other room. 'David, stay here.' The little boy nodded and snuggled with his blanket. Kian ran after Brenda. 'Brenda, you have to understand. I love you but David is my son and I have to take care of him.' 'But it's never you & me anymore it's you & David then me.' She sobbed. 'I'm sorry.' He sat next to her on the stairs. She leaned her head on his shoulder. 'I'll go get ready.' She walked up the stairs and Kian got up to go change David.
~*~Chapter 6~*~
'Davey!' He looked up. 'Want to go see a play?' He nodded. 'Mommy, likes play's she was in one.' He smiled. Kian extended his hand and David took it. After Kian got dressed he got David in a little suet. Brenda looked nice with a plain long black dress on with a pink shawl & matching shoes and purse. Kian helped them into the waiting limo and then they were off to the theater. Once they pulled up there were people taking pictures already. Everyone figured that David was Brenda's. 'Kian, is that your son?' Someone yelled from the crowd. 'Yes, he is.' 'Is Brenda his mother?' 'No.' He turned and walked inside then went right to their seats. A few minutes the lights dimmed and the play started. Monica watched from the side of the stage and didn't even notice them in the crowd. Her first part went great until David stood up. 'Mommy!' He yelled waving and ran towards the stage. Monica froze; she didn't know what to do. She turned and ran off the stage in tears. The director walked over to her. 'Monica are you ok?' 'No, that's my son.' 'It's ok we'll have the other girl go in.' The other girl went on the stage and Monica got her stuff together and planned to sneak out a side door. She walked towards the door only to be stopped by an arm. Monica looked up to see Kian looking down at her. 'Ki? OMG!' She whispered and backed up against the wall. 'Monica, why did you leave David with me?' 'I can't take care of him. I don't have the time or money.' She said.
~*~Chapter 7~*~
David ran over to her and grasped her hand. 'Mommy!' He said happily.
'Hey little man.' She said picking him up. 'Dada, is cool. Are you going to stay with us?' 'David Michael, I can't-' 'Please.' He said crying onto her shoulder. Kian looked at her hopefully. 'Whatever David wants...' He trailed off. 'I don't want to impose and you don't need one more person on the road with you.' 'It's ok; David needs someone to watch him while I'm busy all the time. We can kind of be like a family.' 'What about Brenda?' 'She's my girlfriend and I love her, and you're the mother of my son.' 'Are you sure it would be ok?' 'Yea, it's fine.' 'Ok.' 'Yea, Mommy!' David said hugging her. Brenda walked over and latched onto Kian's arm. 'Brenda, this is Monica, David's mom.' 'Nice to meet you.' She said in a stuck up tone. 'Why don't you meet us at Brenda's house and then we can discuss the plans.' 'Ok.' 'I want to go with mommy, Brenda is mean.' David said holding onto his mother tightly. 'Ok just follow us.' Kian said. Monica followed them and once they got to Brenda's house she felt seriously out of place. Monica walked inside holding David in awe. 'Mommy, why did you leave me?' He suddenly asked. 'I thought your father could take care of you better then I could.' 'I missed you so much.' He said resting his head on her shoulder. Kian sat on the couch next to Brenda while Monica stood there. 'So...' 'I talked to Ronan on the way here and its fine with him.' 'When are you leaving?' 'Tomorrow at 10.' 'Ok, how long is the tour?' 'About 3 months and we have a few days off here and there so we may be going back to Ireland or to the US.' 'So. We're all set?' 'Yea, do you want to meet here?' 'That will be good.' 'Mommy, can I stay with you tonight?' 'If it's ok with your dad.' 'Dad, can I stay with mom?' 'Yea, go get some clothes.'
~*~Chapter 8~*~
Monica put him down and he pulled her out of the room and up the stairs to his room. She stood there in awe at all the toys he had. 'Boy, you're spoiled.' Monica said. 'Mommy, I don't use all the toys but I like them.' 'It's ok; you don't have to explain to me. You're happy here and that's all that matters.' The little boy hugged his mother's leg. 'Mommy, please don't leave again.' 'I won't. Trust me.' After David got his pajamas and clothes for the next day they walked down the stairs. 'You can come back here around 9ish tomorrow.' 'Ok we will.' She carried David's bag and held his hand as they walked out of the door. Brenda turned to Kian after the door closed. ‘You dated her?' 'You could say that.' He got up and walked out of the room and went right to his. David smiled as his mother buckled his seat belt and closed his door. When they got to Monica's apartment she put David on her bed and started to pack her clothes. She called a friend and told her to sell her car and apt. Toni came over. 'Monica, are you sure you just want to pack up and leave for him?' 'Him, he's the father of my son.' 'Yea... and he used you what's to say he won't do it again.' 'He cares about David.' 'Really?' 'Yea, really.' 'Girl, I just don't want you to get hurt again.' 'I won't.' 'If he pisses you off you know where to come. Why don't you leave some stuff at my place you can move in since Rachel moved out to go live with Jake and they moved somewhere.' 'Sure, why not.'
~*~Chapter 9~*~
The night was spent moving stuff and packing everything else. Monica got no sleep and David slept in the backseat of her car. At 10 they were dropped off at Brenda's house. Kian stood near the door. 'You're late.' He said. 'Sorry.' She looked to see everyone waiting in the other room. 'Kian, who is this?' 'Monica, Davey's mother.' A bunch of hellos came from the group. Monica put David down and he ran up to his room. Everyone got into the separate vans with all the stuff and headed off to the airport. Arriving at the airport the vans were surrounded by fans, police tried to keep them back as they brought them around to the side with a fence closing behind them. 'Daddy, is it always like that?' 'Most of the time.' 'Who are the people?' 'Fans.' 'Fans?' 'They like the music me and the other lads sing.' 'Oh... mommy are we there yet?' 'No, we still have awhile.' A few minutes later they were on the plane getting ready to take off. Monica struggled to get David to stay in his seat so she could put on his seat belt. He chomped on some gum as he grabbed his mother's hand tightly. The plan took off and he rested his head back trying not to cry. When they got to Ireland there was another huge crowd. David waved to the people as they tried to drive down the street only to the doors and widows banged on.
~*~Chapter 10~*~
After getting to their houses Monica walked down the street to her along with David. She knocked on the door and when her mother answered it she was immediately hugged. 'Oh Monica, you finally came home.' 'Only for a week David and I are going on tour with Westlife.' 'Oh it's so nice that you three are going to be a family. When's the wedding?' 'Mom, Kian and I aren't getting married. The only reason I'm going on tour is that he wants to be around David.' 'Oh.' Her mother sounded just as disappointed as when she hear that she was having David. 'I think you to kids should fix your mistakes-' 'Mom, we can't get married. We can't even get along. The only reason we're here is for David.' 'Monica, you need to start thinking about your future.' 'David is my future. I need to worry about him not myself.' 'So you’re going to spend your whole life single and never getting married.' 'If that's what's best for David.' 'You're so hopeless.' Her mother turned and walked up the stairs with David. Monica sighed and headed out to the back where there was a small lake. She sat on the grass and looked at the water. She was there for awhile before someone sat next to her.
~*~Chapter 11~*~
'Still your favorite place?' 'Kian, you scared me. Yea, this is still my favorite place.' 'I came to apologize for the way I've acted and for Brenda-' 'You don't have to. I just walked into your life and I'm glad I didn't mess it up to much.' 'Monica, bringing David into my life has been one of the best things that ever happened to me. That's why I needed to apologize me and Brenda have both been acting very rude to you and I realized that Brenda isn't the women I thought she was.' 'You two broke up?' 'Yea, she hates David and you. Plus when I tried to talk to her she acts like a little kid until she gets her way.' 'Kian, I'm sorry for messing it up.' 'Monica, don't worry about it. It wasn't going to last much long anyway, its better I find out now and not in like 5 years.' He laughed. 'I can't wait till we leave. My mother thinks that we're getting married then she says I'm irresponsible.' 'I don't think you are. You took care of yourself and David. I don't think I could have done it.' 'You did for a month and a half.' 'That's nothing compared to 2 almost 3 years. What should we do for his birthday?' 'I don't know maybe have a small party. He's never really had one besides me and him having cake and maybe a friends or two of mine over.' 'Ok, then its set. David's gonna have a party.'
~*~Chapter 12~*~
Two days later there was a huge party for David's birthday. Everyone was there; Monica walked around in amazement as people she hadn't seen in years came and talked to her. Half way threw the party she made her way over to the water and watched David ran into Kian's arms. She smiled as Kian's sister sat next to her. 'Hey Monica, long time no see.' She smiled. 'Yea, how yea been?' 'Ok, I'm getting married 3 months. You’re coming back with the guy’s right?' 'Yea for awhile then I'm gonna go back to England for awhile.' 'How is England to live in?' 'Ok, I really wanted to go to the US but I didn't have the money and I don't if I could have made it as an actress there since there is so much competion.' 'You were always a good actress I think you should try it sometime.' 'Maybe, but David comes first.' 'He has to be one of the best things that has happened to Kian, I think you too should get back together. You two were the best couple.' 'I wouldn't say that.' Once she said that Monica drifted back to memories of her younger days and of Kian. 'Mommy!' She came out of her trace. 'What David?' 'I wanna open my presents.' 'Ok.' She took David's hand and they went over to the presents.
~*~Chapter 13~*~
Kian looked at Monica as she helped David open his presents as everyone watched. Monica looked up as her brother Joseph walked into the backyard. She ran over to him and gave him a hug. They walked over to David was looking at a truck. 'David, this is your uncle Joseph.' 'Hi Uncle Joe, do you like my truck?' 'Yea, I had one juts like it when I was younger.' Monica walked over to Kian. 'You did that too?' 'I had to, you know me and Joe kept in touch plus he really wanted to see you.' 'Thanks.' She said giving him a hug that seemed to shock him when they touched. They both nervously laughed and she made an excuse to go do something and walked away. Kian just watched her until she went inside and he went and walked over to Joe and David. 'Daddy, I'm gonna go talk to my friend Bryan.' 'Ok.' He ran over to Bryan and Joe knew what was on Kian's mind.
'You still love her don't you?'
~*~Chapter 14~*~
'I think so, but she won't open up to me. I know she has to feel the sparks when we touch.' 'Kian, she's scared. Last time you left and never called then she found out about David and made me promise not to tell you because she didn't want it to affect your career.' 'You have to help me get her back.' 'I'll try. I won't promise it because she's very stubborn, even more then you.' Kian gave him a look and he burst out laughing. 'I'll go talk to her. Wish me luck.' Joe got up and went into the house and Kian went to go play with David. Joe walked into Monica's old room and saw her sitting on her bed that was near the window. She had her chin rested on her knees and she watched as Kian showed David how to use one of his new toys. 'Do you still care about him?' She jumped up. 'Joe, you scared me.' 'Do you?' 'I don't know. I mean he left me once what's to say he won't do it again and this time I'm not 16, I have David to worry about too.' 'Monica, he still loves you. Give him a chance.' 'I don't know if I'm ready.' 'You are. Monica, it's been three years. Both of you have grown up and know what you need and want.' She didn't answer but just looked at them again. 'Just think about it, ok?' 'Yea.' Joe left the room and laughed since he knew this would be hard to do.
~*~Chapter 15~*~
The days seemed to fly by and Monica was starting to let Kian in. They were in England getting ready for the tour and they were out getting lunch when Brenda walked over to them. 'Kian, you left me for her?' 'Brenda, I left you because you had no respect for my son and I saw what you really are. Plus I want us three to be a family.' 'How dare you come in between us.' She spat at Monica. 'I didn't come in between you two. Kian is only David's father and nothing else.' She picked up David and left as Kian threw down some money and took off after her. 'Monica, wait.' 'Kian, I can't. David needs to have a nap and I got to meet up with a friend.' 'Here me out. I meant what I said I want us to be a family. Please give me a chance.' 'Kian, when you left it killed me. I was 16 and having a baby, I was scared I didn't know what to do. Then I get you back in my life and the pain all came back. I wish I could but it's to hard now.' 'Then why did you come back in my life? It hurt me too. I tried to reach you when I got time off but you left and I didn't know where you were.' The tears fell from his eyes. 'I can't do this now. I'm sorry. I never should have done this.' She turned and quickly disappeared into the crowd. Kian put his head down and headed back to the venue for another practice.
~*~Chapter 16~*~
When Kian got to the venue the tears were falling from his face and soaking his shirt. All the guys knew something was wrong so they all went over to him. 'Kian, are you ok?' 'Not really, guys I just want to go back to the hotel.' 'Go, your fine with everything we'll just do the stuff all of us are weak with. Do yea want anyone to go with you?' 'No, I'm fine.' He walked out of the arena. 'He must have gone for it. I wonder what happened.' 'Bryan, stop being such a blond she shot him down.' Shane said. 'We gotta help Joe and get them together.' 'How?' The 4 guys huttled together and started to think of a plan. Meanwhile... Monica satin the living room of her and Toni's apartment. David was asleep and Monica was a mess. 'Monica, you have to tell him how you feel before it's too late.' 'I can't I already messed it up. Toni, I can't go on tour.' 'Monica, get over yourself you have an awesome guy that you love and have a son with and your going to let him slip away. I won't let you mess it up even if I have to drag you two together your gonna work it out.' Monica looked up and whipped her eyes. 'Just for David, not for me.' 'For both of you. When's the last time you were with a guy?' Monica put her head down. 'Kian? Damn, no wonder why.' 'Toni, let us do it on our own and if by the end of the tour it isn't worked out you can step in.' 'Fine.'
~*~Chapter 17~*~
Kian lay on his bed looking at a picture of the three of them at a carnival a few days before. 'Why did I have to fuck it up to begin with?' He muttered as the door opened. 'Hey Egan!' Joe said taking a seat on the other side of the bed. 'Joe, I want to be alone now.' 'Shit she shot you down.' 'Yea.' Joe didn't say a word but took off and Bryan walked into the room. 'Leave me alone please.' 'I just wanted to check on you.' 'I'm fine thanks. I'll be at the dress rehearsal tonight don't worry.' 'Ok. Later.' Kian got up and locked his door then put on the TV and drifted off to sleep. Joe burst into Toni and Monica apartment to see them laughing. 'Why did you do it?' He spat. 'Do what?' 'Turn Kian down.' 'I attend on working it out.' 'I bet, I never knew you were so cold hearted. He would give anything to have you three be a real family.' 'It wasn't my fault Brenda-' 'Don't start blaming other people-' He was cut off by her slapping him. 'You came with a half assed story maybe what Kian told you get the hell out of here and tell Kian the next time I talk to him is when hell freezes over.'
~*~Chapter 18~*~
Joe walked back into the hotel knowing he messed it up more. He was greeted by Kian at the desk ordering flowers. 'Egan, I have to talk to yea mate.' Kian nodded and walked over to him. 'I got some bad news. I kinda messed it up a tad bit more.' 'Don't worry about it I have a plan. Thanks anyway.' Kian smiled patting him on the back and returning back to the desk. He watched as Monica burst threw the door with David on her hip. He watched as Kian smiled and walked over to her. 'Monica, I'm sorry about early I want to talk about it.' 'Like I said when hell freezes over. Are you going to spend some time with your son today?' 'Yea, after the dress rehearsal.' 'Whatever.' Monica turned and walked over to the elevator. 'I'm sorry, Joe. You were just the messenger.' Monica smiled as she put David down and fixed her shirt. 'Monica, I miss intermitted what Kian told me and I messed it up more.' 'You don't have to lie for him. I know how he works.' She said taking David's hand as they walked onto the elevator and Joe followed.
~*~Chapter 19~*~
The rest of the after noon Joe tried to help clear up the situation but it wasn't working. At the rehearsal Monica was talking to one of the crew guys, casually flirting making sure Kian could see her. Joe had David on his lap at the front watching the show. After the rehearsal was over they and a small crew party back at the hotel and Monica blew Kian off when he tried to talk to her or give her the flowers. Everyone started to talk about how bitchy she was doing and soon there was going to be a huge fight. Kian carried David over to Monica. 'Can he stay with me tonight?' 'I don't know if I should let him.' Kian put David down and he walked over to Joe. 'Monica, don't get David involved. This is between you and me.' 'Don't forget Brenda.' She replied turning back around. 'That was uncalled for. Monica, stop being so pig headed I love you and not her.' 'Well... I don't love you.' 'Don't lie I know you do. Stop hiding it.' 'You don't now what you’re talking about.' She said pushing past him her eyes all watery. She quickly picked up David and started out to the door.
~*~Chapter 20~*~
Kian stopped her. 'Don't run from your feelings. I understand if you’re scared I am too.' He said looking into her eyes as everyone stopped to watch them. She put down David and looked around the room then back to Kian. The tears were falling from her eyes one after another, she was shaking so Kian wrapped his arms around her as she sobbed on to his shoulder, and Joe took David. Then they walked out of the room and everyone resumed their conversations. The elevator ride was quiet after Monica calmed herself down. She looked at the ground as they walked to his room. 'Your right.' 'About what?' 'That I love you and that I'm scared.' 'Monica, don't worry. I'll never hurt you; I want what's best for us and David.' She looked up at him and smiled then rested her head on his shoulder. A few minutes later David came running into the room along with Joe, the rest of the guys, and their girlfriends. Everyone stopped when they saw Monica asleep in Kian's arms. 'My mommy and daddy are finally back together!' David said happily jumping on the bed waking up Monica. She blushed when she saw everyone watching them. 'Is is true?' Joe asked. She smiled and there a round of applause and she finally knew it would be right.
THE END